Anyway.....

Well, another year has passed and for some strange reason I am thankful and humbled.
I really feel I don't deserve this much attention.

Yet I am filled with a bit of anxiety still. Another year brings a little reflection of where I am not and where I want to be, what I want to do, what it is I have done so far, where am I going, all wrapped into one anxiety ball. I've been hearing about living in the present, through all the de-stress meditation guidelines that have been floating around. Easier said than done I suppose. This year ahead will bring some changes too in the workplace. Hopefully they will only be pushes toward positive notes in the end, but I can't help but to feel sad....

I guess unfortunately with all this anxiety and maybe other things I have not yet reflected upon, it has resulted in .............. road rage ! haha but not really haha.
I've been a bit agitated, cursing other drivers, the traffic, weather and such all in the comfort of my "sound proof " car, and gesturing to other agitated drivers in the silent film / universal sign-language mode we are all familiar with....
It all makes me wonder, whats been bugging me lately?! Whats up with my temper? I chalk it down to the anxiety ball that I mentioned earlier or maybe the sad state of the world that I cannot change, yet it seems so strange given the fact that I am pretty darned thankful for a lot of things in my life....

Anyhow, it doesnt help that my agitation is being spread to others in this world. Hopefully I can keep myself in check.
Yesterday evening I came across this during mass:

Mother Teresa's Anyway Poem

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God;
It was never between you and them anyway.