Guess who came back from Hawaii!?

...... not me. booooooo.....

But, I gots me some'a these goodies.
Mauna Loa Chocolates, Noni, Kauai and Kona Coffee....
Thank you! :)
Sooooooo yummy! Especially the Milk Chocolate Coconut Macadamias! (I'd like to be buried in these)
The flavored coffee as well - put that in a perfume bottle!
Anyhow, I think T.O needs an all Hawaiian store.....

Dreams (lyrics) - Fleetwood Mac

Radio listening today again in the car.....



"Thunder only happens when it's raining...

Players only love you when they're playing"



So true Fleetwood Mac, so true...was too little to understand this before...

Backstreet Boys - All I Have To Give

.... This was on the radio this morning. Oldie but so fun to sing to ! Surprised myself, knew all the words!

Ah brings me back to memories of my untainted heart... haha.

Them hawaiian gals....

Last time I went to Hawaii it was a stop over from Phil...I remember getting off the plane and seeing lots of Samoan looking people. They are bigger people than me.
But I guess that was a long time ago....

So much for hoping the hawaiian gals looked a bit more like The Rock:



Ya. They don't look like him...

Where's my FORK!?? dammit!

This week has been pretty darned crazy.
There is a lot going on with planning and organizing.
I am forgetting to get all my own stuff done.
Right now I feel so disorganized that I had to double check that I had all my clothes on this morning before leaving home.

And right now it's 11:59 am and I am screaming in my head :

WHERE'S MY FORK???!!!

I can't find it.
And this means I can't eat my yummy lunch!
And I can get pretty grumpy with an empty belly........

GAHHHHH!

Living in my head

Today during my medical apts, I came across a gal that I only knew by face.
I used to work at my school's front desk part time and I seem to remember faces (never names, but lately neither both as I age, ugh).
She acknowledged that I looked familiar to her and after some thought we figured it out.
She then said "Oh I don't really remember anyone from school, maybe only two people in my class, but anyone else I don't remember. But I remember your face, you looked so familiar, I remember your face because I always thought you were so pretty."
Wow.
Not one to toot my own horn, but it was such a nice compliment!!
I found this sooo surprising and pretty cool, because I immediately was drawn back to thinking about how I actually felt about myself back then.
And that was not what I thought.
Growing up I will admit I've always felt like a Mugly Duckling.
The awkward stage seemed to last most of my childhood life.
Um... maybe I have pictures to prove it but I am not offering those up!
I guess as I got older I slowly I realized, hey... I have my good days haha.
I guess its a huge combination lack of self esteem and whatever else had an influence on me or whatever reason.
All of those things do not seem as important now.
But it has definitely surprised me today - how much I could live inside my own head and have a totally different picture of how I feel people perceive me, to how they actually perceive me.
Guess it can hold true for not just the external but internal as well.

Coincidentally, driving to my appointment, I heard this campaign on the radio:
 http://selfesteem.dove.ca/en/

lovely morning

Had a couple of appointments this morning, and even though it was still a chilly May, that sun was out!
I finished early so I had the chance to even buy some lunch uptown before I headed back to work.
I often wonder what it is to have a 'life of leisure' - meaning, I wonder why on earth isn't everyone at work, why are there a lot of people just lingering about - enjoying the day, when I'm cooped up most of the time?

I was driving back with the window rolled (who "rolls" windows in cars anymore) down. Driving down Bayview ave. I caught the scent of freshly cut grass beside the park I used to go to when I was younger.

Gez, I thought when was the last time I smelt fresh cut grass? It's like I was caught in a early childhood memory... even though it was not too long ago.

Well, it has already been about 6 yrs since I've moved downtown.

Sure, I'm close to a lot of things, I can bike or transit it, and sometimes even walk it. I don't have a long commute. Heart of the city almost and what people may say - close to where all the action is. Since then, I have had a recurrent (chronic) "cold" that comes by several times a year that I believe has never even left me, I've had what I deem as possible "allergies", constant dry throat, constant "stuffiness" occasional nose bleeds due to the dry air, and recently scored a 7 on the carbon monoxide device from the RT at work (I don't smoke).

All the not so wonderful costs of living in this concrete jungle!

enlightening

When someone says great convo, rarely is it that the convo was opposite to their own values. Most likely it was a convo that reinforces what was already thought or valued. It may add to it, but never was it a convo that clashed hard. It could even be looked at as enlightening or non judgmental, but really it is judgment that was in line with how the person perceiving it has already thought.
Don't get me wrong, it is such a wonderful feeling to find others you bond with, that think like you. Thats what we seek in life. To find our people. Our niche. But what can be perceived as enlightening or non judgmental to one can be the total opposite to another, another that actually has opposite values and views...

Its only....

11 am.... OMG I thought it was much later!
Today is so busy, yet time is going by soooooooo slow..

cul de sac NOT

My work is practically downtown. Just outside but close enough.

It is surrounded by busy main roads and side residential ones.

There is a road in particular that is a short connection between two MAIN streets. 

Two main streets.

One of the main streets practically starts on one end of this huge ass city and ends on the other end, yep, street cars and everything! The other main street parallel to this is almost as busy - definitely a route to take if the other one is jam packed. 

There is a small residential street that connects these two main streets. Apparently one of the many most desirable streets in the big ol city. Its close to a lot of things, restaurants, shops, health centres, drug stores, pharmacies, public transit, condos, a gas station. This connecting street is filled with huge million dollar homes and apparently infiltrated with young families with a bunch of kids. Thats lovely. Lively residential area. 

But what isn't lovely is the various signs up throughout the year saying "slow down" "kids at play" and huge traffic enforcement monitors and unmonitored kids playing on the sidewalk AND road, road hockey and playing catch by the street and neighbours kids running across the street at all times to play with other neighboring kids. This happens during rush hour at the end of the day. 

And sometimes when there are the large parent social events that gather as well, they give you nasty looks like - what are you doing driving down this road! Don't you see there are kids at play all or' da place? Our children own this road. How dare you! I'm watching you ! And they stare sometimes practically twisting their head off as I drive by. 

I get that you live where you live and have a right to your rights, but practically speaking.... this ain't a CUL DE SAC!!! Stop acting like it is one!! You cannot expect a playground in the middle of the street when you chose to live by one of the busiest streets downtown. 

Leapin Gluten Free overdose

Well, I'm not one to eat sweet cereal for breakfast, just because I know there really isn't any nutritional value in it.
But in my gluten free quest and also to mainly use up the coconut milk I bought.... I came across this cereal....

Leapin' Lemurs!!

What an illusion of "healthy" that the gluten free term makes.....

I cant stop eating this.

For the past few nights I have eaten this, at the same time making my regular dinners....by the time I finish making dinner, my belly is fully stuffed with this cereal!

Gluten free. Vegan.

So yum.