Uncanny...

It's interesting how I seem to know things before other people know it themselves....

Not to be arrogant or anything. Maybe I just over think of all the possibilities. Maybe I just know how the puzzle looks by extrapolating the pieces. 

Sometimes it's a good thing - prepared. Nope not fearful. 

Sometimes it's a bad thing - when I see the result will not match with what I feel the result should be. 

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This day I realized some goals . Not bucket list stuff yet but goals.

Usual stuff but need it to be priority:

Eat healthy, drink more water, keep active to be fit and feel great and have fun, exercise my a$$, love hard when there's love to be had, don't take the ones you love for granted, meditate ! - must learn patience, silence, and thoughtfulness - instead of being led by reactive emotions, especially when hurt, don't lose yourself trying to love someone else, make someone's day everyday. OH and sleep early!! Frig.

Mr Rogers neighborhood

When I come in to work and change from my shoes and socks into my work shoes and socks, it reminds me of Mr. Rogers.

Was going to post a pic of him and the show, but it all looks kinda creepy now, looking back at it. Don't know why.

Present mood

My old favorite Zara skull shirt.

Crystal clear!

Its like I have new eyes
for my phone.
Finally took off the grungy peeling "protector" cover off the face of my phone.
Instagram never looked so clearer!

Cant wait to get a new phone.

OFF track....

Wow.
I started from the bottom now I'm.... well. Here?
Where's here anyhow?

This morning as I realized that its a new start of a new month and that Im full aware the days are passing ever so quickly that I must come up with a plan to get things done this year... (where was I going... thats a long sentence)....

Anyhow, I realized I've been focused on my huge ass personal injury from last year and trying to struggle to get out of that and I know I have forgotten who I was or really am.

(deep eh?)

I went to the beginning of this blog (bottom) to put the focus on who I am again and to read my light hearted thoughts (this was the purpose of this blog was to be more light hearted).

Gez man, where did my humor go? Its practically NULL right now. Where are all the recipes I planned to keep in this blog so that I can become some super chef and home maker and wonderful insights into my every day happenings and career woman and over all SUPER WOMAN! I had real estate plans, career plans, helping underpriveledged kids plans... where'd it all go?

Gotta git back on dat. Time is a passin and I shouldnt waste.

Watched "The Bucket List" again on Netflix last night. Not as big an impact as it was when I first watched it a few yrs ago. For years now, Ive been meaning to make a new bucket list. Im at a loss as what to put into it. Dare I put get married on it?
That movie was ok.... sure, we would all like to be able to travel the world last minute and have a crap load of moola to do it with... but we gotta be realistic now.

I realize Im wasting a lot of time getting over this heart-ache funk. Its the biggest and most damaging I've ever been through.
I'm sure I can give my old self the advice of "protecting your heart" but I already knew it back then, and chose the road to stop protecting myself and to experience life (cause there is a thing of over protecting yourself and not living life), but you never really learn the full meaning of advice or words of wisdom until you live it.

I wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy. Twas a killer.

Anyhoot... there is no other choice but to chug through it and check later if I made it through with all my parts in tact. But Im still going through it. Not fast enough.

Rare gems

It's very rare to meet ppl in my life that I feel are beyond amazing. I mean I love my family and my friends and I'm lucky enough to find some really great ppl in my life.

But there are those that stick in your head. Those that have a profound affect on anyone that meets them. Those that you feel are so full of goodness their cup is overflowing. I actually went on a date with one guy like that - he is married now and I still can say good stuff about him.

Then there is my high school friend. Married with kids, ebbing through life and I only keep in touch maybe once a year with a voice mail or text.

I'm truely blessed by his presence.

This time he called at a very difficult time in my life. 

Everyone should be blessed to have a friend like him.

Love affair

Been so tired lately. 

I think I'm starting a love affair with my bed.

2:30 pm nap time again.