OFF track....

Wow.
I started from the bottom now I'm.... well. Here?
Where's here anyhow?

This morning as I realized that its a new start of a new month and that Im full aware the days are passing ever so quickly that I must come up with a plan to get things done this year... (where was I going... thats a long sentence)....

Anyhow, I realized I've been focused on my huge ass personal injury from last year and trying to struggle to get out of that and I know I have forgotten who I was or really am.

(deep eh?)

I went to the beginning of this blog (bottom) to put the focus on who I am again and to read my light hearted thoughts (this was the purpose of this blog was to be more light hearted).

Gez man, where did my humor go? Its practically NULL right now. Where are all the recipes I planned to keep in this blog so that I can become some super chef and home maker and wonderful insights into my every day happenings and career woman and over all SUPER WOMAN! I had real estate plans, career plans, helping underpriveledged kids plans... where'd it all go?

Gotta git back on dat. Time is a passin and I shouldnt waste.

Watched "The Bucket List" again on Netflix last night. Not as big an impact as it was when I first watched it a few yrs ago. For years now, Ive been meaning to make a new bucket list. Im at a loss as what to put into it. Dare I put get married on it?
That movie was ok.... sure, we would all like to be able to travel the world last minute and have a crap load of moola to do it with... but we gotta be realistic now.

I realize Im wasting a lot of time getting over this heart-ache funk. Its the biggest and most damaging I've ever been through.
I'm sure I can give my old self the advice of "protecting your heart" but I already knew it back then, and chose the road to stop protecting myself and to experience life (cause there is a thing of over protecting yourself and not living life), but you never really learn the full meaning of advice or words of wisdom until you live it.

I wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy. Twas a killer.

Anyhoot... there is no other choice but to chug through it and check later if I made it through with all my parts in tact. But Im still going through it. Not fast enough.