Was talking to a Patient today, her husband passed away late last year.
she was talking about how she is getting better about it these days.

"but you never are really prepared for it."

He was sick and suffering for quite some time and she was his primary care giver.
She refused to put him in a home even though her health was not too great as well, so it was a struggle to take care of him.

"If you go that extra mile, you can look back and not have any regrets"

Due to his ailing health she was trying to prepare herself for it, but it was still a shock when he passed.

"Sometimes, I still find myself making a cup of tea and turning around wanting to ask if he wants one too."

I can not imagine ever losing someone that I love and connect with that much.

She went on to say -

"Not just a husband, but you lose your best friend. Someone you can be yourself with, it doesnt matter if you are crying or mad or angry or in a bad mood, it doesnt matter how you look, or even someone you can be silly with and just dance around with. We knew each other so well, you know everything there is to know about that person. Everything you could possibly know about that person and they know that about you too."

Such heart ache, and yet so blessed at the same time.