I think Italy is courting me.....

So one of my favorite patients came in today. The elder Italian lady and once again, she brought me home made lunch.
I think its home made pizza and veggie soup with orzo.

Her husband passed away about 2 years ago and she is still mourning him.
So very sad.
Today she said to me "When he was around you know, I felt STRONG. He would do things for me, like open the door, I miss that. I miss him."

You know, with all this womens independance movement (which I am thankful for in many ways) I still appreciate that whole idea of "being treated like a lady".
Chivalry.
Really............ its not something so grand and difficult, no slaying of the dragon or warding off enemies with a sword and suit of armour, no riding miles and miles on horseback through horrid weather to see me................. its just little thoughtful gestures to show they care. What a wonderful feeling to have when you know someone cares about you to think about your needs before theirs. Something that seems to be disappearing lately. Of course its a two way street as well. Im no Princess , or Queen that needs to be served hand and foot. Just gestures to show you care about each other. Simple. And should come naturally. And should not be demanded of the other.

Anyhow, how nice she described it that way : "I felt strong"


However, its not lunch yet and I feel weak... wanta give in and start eating this delicious food right now! Im supposed to be following this low carb diet. Damn, Im not gonna fit into my dress for that cocktail party tonight!

Vanish

I woke up this morning and the world around me vanished!

This was my view outside my kitchen window. I had to go up close to see any faintness of any buildings. It was almost like I was living in a cloud. Sooo foggy. Quite erry actually.

A friend reminded me: "Its just human nature, to want something more, when you feel you are going to loose it, or that you cant have it"

Hope

... is a funny thing. A couple years ago, I had hoped to erradicate this "hope" from my system.
But somehow, it keeps coming back, even when I dont want it to -  because it can be torturous having this when it seems forever unfullfilled. (I think I put too many l's in that word).

I wonder how much of this word is too much. I wonder how much of it is necessary in helping us find our destiny.

Anyhow, I know Ive said it before but I dont like "mushy" stuff because I feel it gives me a false sense of hope.

Anyhow, some things fall through the cracks.

Like this song. And yes, yet again, its country!

(its an oldie, but it was on Xfactor tonight so just reminicing)

3rd time is a charm ! TURKEY time.

Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving.
There is alot that Im thankful for. Especially my family and health.

I attempted the Turkey again for the 3rd time.
It usually always stresses me out. I keep checking and checking and basting and opening the oven (bad bad bad).

I think I got it now.

• Butterball Stuffed frozen Turkey
• melt 1/2- 1 cup salted butter or non salted butter
• brush whole turkey with butter
• Oven at 325 until stuffing is 72C and leg is 82C
• cover stuffing and neck area with foil from the start.
• cover after 5 hours with foil to even out cooking.

This 3rd time it was goooooood. Not too dry, not raw haha. Just right!
And I was less stressed about it this time. Opened the oven less and didnt have to baste it much. Just woke up 6 am (it was for Thanksgiving lunch) did the prep and popped it in the oven and went back to sleep until 930am.

I wonder what it is about 3rd times. And 3rd times being a "charm". Wonder where that came from.
Does that mean then the 4th time and 5th time I make a turkey it is going to suck? Does it mean that I will never cook a turkey ever after #3?
Riddiculous!
Lets hope it justs gets better and better after this.

"honey, what are we having for dinner tonight?"
"meh..... nothing big tonight, Im too tired to make anything..... just a FREAKIN Turkey Dinner!"
BAAHM! just like that.

Ima be a great cook.

Some guy is totally missing out!

Yea dude, that means you! Cause after the 3rd time it just gets better and better!

AND cause apparently I can cook goooood!

(yes, its true, one great turkey and I'm Julia Child, no Martha Stewart, no....Both! All in one and in a pretty package too! bahahaha!) - work with me here, Im trying to get over him.

Randoms of the day

so I have to keep my mind busy right now cause if I dont it drifts to where it shouldnt.

Random this morning :
Didnt realize how cool this song sounds until just now. Or maybe its cool because its nostalgic for me hummmmmm



And the second Random of the day:

I think the sexiest sounding shoes are

Ferragamos - ooooooo those Italians. Damn them and their sexiness!
This pic is also from the Island of Capri.

Ok, enough randoms, carry on with your day.....

Pasta Carbonara

.... is what I made for dinner tonight.

and it is what I made many a time when I was living on my own over 10 yrs ago.

At this point, I just wing the recipe: pasta, egg, parmesian, parsley, salt, pepper, bacon, garlic, milk/cream, I added mushrooms today before they went bad.

Maybe I will post a pic after this lethargic fullness goes away.


So I was talking to a friend, Janet tonight.

"if you are hungry long enough, the hunger goes away, the first 24 hours is the worst then you just get used to it"


"experience is never a waste of time, unless you do not learn from it."


"we regret the things that we didnt do than the things we have done."