new normal.....

I left my place to go grocery shopping today at 11 am.

Took me a bit to prep, clothing without too many layers, ski scarf , minimal side pouch for cash and a cheque (to deposit), light washable coat, card holder with minimal cards, hand sanitizer spray, nitrile gloves, mask , hair in a bun, phone in ziplock (hey, it still works through the plastic!).

Arrived at the grocery store to see a separated line up out the door! Should I turn back?
Actually it was pretty good. This organic store was systematic in making sure people kept separated. It was the best grocery shopping event I went to since this all started. I wasn't freaked out and anxious about those around me and I could find everything I wanted.... except Kohlrabi (?!) which is my mom's new fav for salads.

Dropped these off at the door of my folks place.

Then set out to deposit moola. Apparently cash can be deposited via atm but not cheques?! Another separated line up. Yes.... I may move to just get the bank app, I do not like having too much personal information in my phone but these times may force me to do it.

Then to Home Depot for my furnace/hvac filter. And a hepa filter possibly for the face masks I have been sewing since some hospitals are asking for them... (crazy how unprotected front line is).

Then my own grocery shopping.

Then stop at concierge to pick up my package.

Then home by 4:00 pm.

Stripped off everything at the door and placed clothes in the wash.

Then washed all my groceries.

Then showered.

Then looking at the pile of plastic bags from the groceries in one corner on the floor.... what do I do with them? Washing all these Covid plastic bags really will take forever for them to dry, if at all. Or if in doubt throw it out? Or do I just quarantine these bags for 14 days and monitor their symptoms?

After all this washing and sanitizing I looked down at my manicure. Ugh. (not gel)

Already Peeling and cracking and chipping off.

I decided to make another manicure appointment at my usual place:

Me: So what time do you have available for a manicure?

Also me: Maybe tomorrow after 12? Today was just too exhausting and I have yet to wash all my floors.

Self confidence part 3.?

I like mentioning this topic because we all struggle with it to some degree and I have noticed how this has changed for me throughout the years.

The wonderful podcast from The Life Coach School outlines it clearly, not going to link it here since I have mentioned it many times.

More than ever, I realize that self confidence comes from within. Apart from what is happening around you. True self confidence comes from not comparing yourself to others but in knowing how you want to be and striving for it, knowing what you like to do and being able to do it, no matter what external judgments are made by others. People get this from many things, doing things they enjoy, different ways of feeling better about themselves, setting personal goals, our desires of what we want and do not want in our lives.

Anyhow, random sort of.


This.....click here


And this....

We are in this together...

Have you ever been in a line up that was not moving?
You can see everyone around you and how they cope with this.
Ahh so you have?
Well then I bet you recognize that one person in the lineup that always manages to let out a big
*SIGH*
in their huffy puffy breath.
Because they are frustrated and getting angry of course.
...
Just like the rest of us..... in the same. freakin. non-moving. line up.

They manage to do this, however, every couple of minutes.
Interrupting my own struggle with my zen.
And this annoyance spreads throughout the line up.
A once quiet internal dealing and patience testing line up is broken every couple minutes by this large big ass ...

*SIGH* huff huff


*SIGH*


*SIGH*


*SI..... *


DUDE!!! STFU!!!
Muther F**ER  !!!
You are not making this any easier on the rest of the line up!
Pull your big-kid pants on and learn to STFU!!!
Cause this line-up is not only about YOU!

........

Yes so these times are tough and I know its not easy to self isolate/quarantine/ or stay in lockdown. It's ok to be overwhelmed and to express this, and to break down a bit at the thought of it all, I have thats for sure.
But I also try to focus on the positive - wow - social media! Thank goodness! And more time to reflect. Time to do all those hobbies (indoor) that we did not have time to do before. To do our taxes, to start home exercising, to cook, to connect virtually with people, to connect more with family, friends, to check up on everyone, pray for those that are putting their own lives at risk for us. Find ways to help others, help others cope. Its a time to forget the conflicts and to realize what is more important.
So the cliche that is going around right now is that "we are all in this together". It is said so often that is has been overlooked as a cliche. But really, if we look very closely at this, we really are all in this together.
So yes, check up on each other or reach out to those close when we feel depressed or overwhelmed.

But huffing and puffing about the situation which is just the new normal right now to randoms and for all to hear and see, without doing something about it - does not help others around you who are trying to cope along with everyone else.....

I greeted and called my first patient to come into the clinic this morning.
She is 88 yrs old and has a strong European accent.

While she got settled into the treatment chair, I realized I misplaced the autoclave identification tape I had the day before.

She sat in the chair a few minutes in silence,
while I was searching my desk, the side counter, the cupboards, my desk again, the window sill, the treatment cart, the side counter again, the cupboards again....

"Are you looking for me?" She finally asked from the large treatment chair in the middle of the room.

hahaha !